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"Those people are bastards"

I can tell you something else, when I crashed down, revived to life again … After that I was in several private clinics for more than a year, to recover. They had to deal with a professional oath, the oath of secrecy. Finally, as they saw my internal injuries, just everything what was wrong, they began to wonder what had happened.

Then… yes, it still is a difficult part… You have to experience it yourself to know. It is a bit the same as living in Syria nowadays and half your family is shot to pieces, you are suffering seriously.

It takes a long time to process trauma.

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But when it comes to recovery, the doctors asked me what had happened to me. Then I told them the truth, just like I do now. Do you know what they did?

They called out for all kinds of specialists - psychiatrists, psychologists. Everybody had to look into my mind, because “this cannot be true”, eh? “You are describing a movie, you fantasist”, yes…

Then finally, because they made a lot of diagnoses, I actually found it humorous. I thought, gosh, all of them are smart and intelligent scholars, professors, all of which make diagnoses, while I am just speaking the truth, but no one believes me.

Then I gave permission for a few loved ones, from my most inner circle, trust relationships, I gave permission to interview them.

A few weeks later, I still remember the white coats with their files entering the room, dazed —

“We are sorry, Ronald… we cannot help you… your trauma is so serious… we cannot do that.”